Dad I Love You~

It was 3am++ when I wrote this..because I can’t sleep at all when I think of it.
I kept thinking of the same thing for the past half an hour on the bed and finally I decided to wake up and write this, because I don’t really know who should I share it with. I want to tell it out to somebody or someone, but I just don really know who…so I wrote it here better.

Today I told my friends that I was planning to go back to our PJ sweet house, but I decided to wait until my dad came back then only I go because I want to at least see them before I go. So, I wait…at night my dad and bro came back from work. Just as soon as my dad came down from the car and going to take the things out from the car, I told my dad that I’m going to drive my car to PJ sweet home. Immediately, he objected my will and not allowing me to drive that car to PJ sweet home. On that time, I can’t say that I was angry. I was just quite disappointed with my dad’s answer..

I mean…what is the really reason for him to not giving the car? If he says it’s dangerous, then why doesn’t he say it when I moved out and live outside that time? He wants me to take a taxi tomorrow morning at Chow Kit…then I say, I purposely take my bags with me, follow you go Chow Kit then take taxi to PJ and stuck in the traffic for 2 hours while we have a car at home for use? Is it more complicated like that? My dad says that my license doesn’t even pass 1 year from the day I took it…but I think whether a person knows how to drive doesn’t depend on how long his/her license is right? Besides, he never sees I drive before. And he did ignore me before when I say ‘let me drive and u’ll see’.

I said that my dad didn’t support me and he argued again. Yes, he does support all the way by only paying my house rental, my school fees, and etc. As a matter of fact, we opened an account together so that he can always transfer money to me. But, money can’t buy everything. You can even send me to do oversea study if you want to, but can you buy me education? You can pay my rental for me every month, but can you buy me a home? Even though if I were in an accident one day, but the license is still mine not yours. So why are you so care about me driving your car to PJ? Not that I don’t know the way to go O.o or maybe you just afraid that I crash your car?

My final exam is 3 days more and that was just my little request from you but yet, you don’t let me. This is not joke to make fun of okay…if I got an ‘F’ for failed in one of my subject, I can’t proceed to my Degree level without my Foundation certificate. I’m quite concern about it though I don’t look that nervous for other people…can you buy me back my time too?

I’m sorry dad, for talking about you here. I still love you so much dad. Maybe you don’t really realize that your son has grown up and he’s able to make good decision for his own…I must say that I’ve grown up a lot since living outside with my friends for almost a year now. You’ve let me go by living outside, but why can’t u let me make my own decision again this time? Haha…now I realize that it’s good to have a blog so that we can write out our feelings that we wish to tell somebody.